Saturday, 28 April 2012

I still have so much to live for

Everyday I'm thankful  that the Almighty granted me another day with my love ones.
But I can’t stop wondering how my day is going to turn out because1 minute I  feel  I can take on the world and the next minute  I’m too tired too even breathe. And wonder where the pain is going to hit me or what name I'm going to call my kids by L
Sometimes lupus with all its side effects really hits me hard. I try to put on a brave face but when I’m alone, my emotions  of weakness and fear shows.
I still have so much to live for, so many things I still want to experience; I still want to see my son settle in a career and get married. And go dress hunting  with my daughter  for a matric ball dress. And of course fulfil the 5 the pillar of my religion and that is to go for Gadj to the holy city Makkah.
In Shaa Allah “God’s willing"
Life with lupus is tough and hard but I have to be strong and try not to give up but try to face each minute of each day that is granted to me and face whatever day the day brings for me.